bleh

and it's times like these where things get really bad and theres no one. i try talking to poeple and they could care less and it just makes things so much worse

While I'm sure a lot of us can give you good advice, you can't really expect people over the internet who don't even really know your internet persona to care much. Except HoH. :-p

Plus, you can't always trust the advice you get here. For instance, I tried taking the route you're taking when I was younger and talking to a member here. He was an old-school member named Kuja. In the end he just tried to convince me that Hentai was better than regular porn.