Easily the worst day of my life.

I am pretty frustrated.

Today was easially the worst day of my life. For numerous reasons obviously. It was ryans birthday party, how ironic that on such a happy day I would end up so fucking miserable. I'll create in paragraph form a seriese of events that happened to me today.
So, i thought today was going to be all good and everything becuase I wake up seriously from a call with my ex-best friend. I really was excited becuase I knew i would see all my buddies and maybe even talk to lauren. Well I went and at bennet it was pretty lame.
We got home and we hackeysacked for a long time and so then we just really were having a good time outside and stuff and then i come in and lauren calls and tells me "i just want to be friends". I seriously am not all-for soft breakups. Im still pretty confused, dazed, angry, sad, and im quite ignorant about this whole day. Man... i was OK after the breakup until i heard garrett say "Are you saying she broke up with nick for his second best friend?" to her friend katy. Yeah. For sean. What kind of shit is that? The most ironic thing is, 2 months before lauren and I went out, i was in a car with my friend chris who is like 18?+, and i told him that i kind of like this girl lauren and theres a rumor that she likes me too but i dont know if i should go for it becuase I dont want to make her ex jordan hate me, and he said "why did she break up with him" and i told him because she liked other people, and im friends with jordan, and he said "well fuck her, shes just going to dump you for all your best friends anyways, girls dont change so dont expect you to be any more special than this jordan kid". No. I didnt cry. I didn't act miserable. I didn't act like it didn't bother me. I really liked lauren, a lot, and lauren when you read this I just wanted to be blunt and say straight up; We will not be friends in the future. Why would I have any reason to talk to you. The only way we will keep in touch from now on is if for some odd reason you call me or if you get on instant messenger and you message me. There will be no friendship between us, i dont even know if I would be able to look at you right now. It was hard enough getting over sean going out with you roughly 2 hours after you broke up with me.
It doesnt end there either. About eh.... lets see here.. 30 minutes ago, I was at ryans house, yeah my 'ex-best friend', and he started shitting bricks out the ass and flipping out on me becuase people were acting stupid and there were people standing behind him and making stupid gestures like guns and stuff to his head and 'bunny ears' and calling him retarted is basically what they were doing. So i was wet yeah becuase we had a supersoaker fight in his basement and everyone else was dry but me i have no idea why it could be becuase I got the most wet and I didnt have any clothes. So he says some pretty cruel things to me and basically blames everything tonight on me. He accuses me of doing things I didnt do, so I stand up, looked him square in the eye, and told him to suck my dick. Yeah thats right I pulled a classic. He said "well lets see it". Only thing is that power-hungry whore would've actually acted gay and tried to molest me in the ass or something. So he said "I guess you should start walking" and kicked me out of his house, i was pretty wet, and its pretty cold outside. So I walk home, freezing my ass off, reflecting, thinking about how im going to handle this.

Lonely again, I'll walk this road several times before I find a gal that likes me for the inside instead of the outer shell. Personally, there is nothing that makes me happy right now. Nobody or anything... The only people who I would regularily turn to im either too embarressed to tell them, they wouldnt understand, or i no longer feel comfertable talking to them. Life was so good until today, and it just all went away like it never existed.

I seriously thought about pulling a K-R and telling her i have enough friends.

Damn, I really wanted to find out what she did when you rubbed peppermint extract into her clit and blew air into her vagina.

Oh well, there's always the next girl!

What a rightful shitty day dude...I'm sorry.

Yeah, if she breaks up with people for their best friends and then continues their cycle, they're not worth your time.

As for your "ex-friend", what the fuck was his deal?

Gay. Life is gay.

Some of that was kinda confusing but... your ex, she reads the forums? Eh, I'm sure that didn't go over to well in her mind when she saw you "rate my g/f thread".
Grav is right, lifes a bitch. Especially being a teen man. It's tough to cope w/ all that shit cause your just dealing w/ alot of things for the first time.

Life is and will always be a bitch. I just hope you have some other friends to sort of fall back on. If not, I'm guessing most of us here at zelaron will give words of wisdom (some more than others).

No she doesnt read the forums. I'm not too worried about that right now.

She wants me back. I dont know what to do. She says she never really liked sean and that she was just peer pressured into breaking up with me. I dunno man what to do becuase she fucking hijacked my emotions to hell and I really want to say yes i really do but i dont know what will come of it. Every time I look at her Im going to think horrible things.

Isn't it fucked up how people can just do that with no consideration for your feelings? But meh... I'd say seperate yourself from her for at least a week, she how she reacts.

Slaynish.......dont go back witht his girl........run from her.......the moment she first said "friends" should have redflagged her and you should have stopped there. trust me.....Its not worth the mental anguish.......she did it once she might do it again or this will come back to haunt you.......

Heres what to do if you really want her back:
-Dont mention it, if you go and tell her that you're mad at her and stuff she will see you as weak, and all you'd be doing would be feeding her ego, thus in her mind she will think that the reason for the breakup was YOUR fault and not hers.

If you must talk to her about it, dont sweat it, be calm and cool about it, just let her know that she disrespected you and you will not tolerate this kind of behavior.

And if you guys get back together.......make her chase you, dont call, only return calls, if she asks you to hang out tell her that you're doing something else(even if u really wanna see her and u have nothign else to do, go walka roudn the block or something a few times or w/e) eventually she will be burning and dying to see you......trust me, she will be calling like every 5min......

I like choice 3, the get back together, except less harsh. I think thats what i'm going to do. All my friends say go back with her but im going to call my brother first he knwos what to do.

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I talked to my brother. He gave me my answer and told me to just go with that if I feel its right. I trust him because I've seen what hes been througha nd it is exactly what I've been through.

He told me that I can go back with her if I want to but do nto get attached, dont act like its the same, and always be on the look out for something better. He said play the field a little because getting serious like he did at an early age was not a good idea. I think im going to go with that.

You've got a wise brother.

Buy some cayenne pepper. Pour a little pile into your hand and go talk to Ryan serious. Tell him you have something for him and hold up your closed hand palm up. When he goes to look, open it and blow the pepper into his eyes. If I had an "ex-best friend" that was that much of a dick to me for no reason, I'd have to show him a little physical pain to combat the unnecessary emotional pain.

:-\

Don't get back with her man... You'll regret it.

And I know that you're just going to think that our advice isn't as good as your brother's advice or your friends' advice because they know you, and we don't. It's perfectly natural to think that way, but listen to me. I'm just trying to help you, because I know how some of this shit is.

You will regret it if you take her back.

I'm guessing you really wanted to spite her, huh? lol

Props on the note.

When people discover a fragment of their soul in another, they learn love. However, when they realize that it cannot be theirs, people learn jealousy. Jealousy is the spiritual voice that calls those fragments. In other words, energy! To take that burden and live... towards the thorny path! O jealousy, give us power!

O beautiful rose coming into bloom, thy red petals are so vivid as if ye were about to overflow. Thy green leaves are graceful, and thy scent is bewitchingly fragrant. Take my blood in thy lips and savor it with thy tongue. Moisten thy throat, then wither and die. And the rose will conceive destruction.

Play the victim clause with one of her friends. You probably got to know them a little when you were with her. Call one of them up and ask them out. Who knows? You might actually like the girl as well as get a little revenge.

eh im doing a little better now, i followed my brothers option because i do like her but its definitly not the same, she was like "i want to hug you so much" and i just said alright, didnt even think about what she said or if i felt the same way, i definitly dont like her as much as I used to.... it will be fun and this way i wont come out of this relationship broken like i did before