Well.. I feel shitty again.

Ok, this time it's fucking over. Jacqui(my girlfriend for 11 months) has just broke up with me. The first time we broke up, it was mutual and we realized just how stupid it was. So, we got back together. Remember, the first time dealt with religion.

Now, last night I'm at a friend's house playing some Halo/doing homework. She calls my cellphone and asks me to come over because she needs to talk to me. Automatically, I backtrack and think of what I could have done wrong this time. She then tells me that it's not me and that it's her. I'm like.. Wut teh fukc?

Anyway, I go over and we are standing outside talking. She says, "First, I realize it was wrong of me to try and change you to be more religious. I honestly realize that and I'm sorry." I say, "Is that the only thing you wanted to talk about? If that's the case, then we're ok.. right?"

She says, "Well, I went to church this morning and actually had a 1on1 talk with God. He told me that sometimes I have been putting you(me) in front of Him and that is wrong. Sometimes I have loved you more than Him. Even if it was for a second. I know that that is wrong and I have to break up with you for that."

Me: "Are you fucking serious? You're willing to throw away 11 months because of that bullshit excuse?"
Her: "It's what I believe in!"
Me: "Fuck that. It soudns like a cult. You can't love anyone in fear of loving that person more than God even if it is only a second."
Her: "I'm sorry. I still love you, want to marry you, and want to have kids with you some day."
Me: "Bullshit! That's a lie! If you honestly believed all that stuff you just said you would never break up with me."
Her: "I just need some time to think things through. I still love you."
Me: "I'm not going to wait on you. I'm going to move on. I don't want to see you for the rest of my life. Get the fuck out of it and quit playing these bullshit mind games with me."

So, I left her house, and proceeded home. I tore up every picture we had together, smashed a picture frame causing glass to fly everywhere in my room and my hand to bleed profusely. I'm fucking fed up. That is one of the shadiest reasons to break up with someone. She said she'll still love me and want to be with me and I really don't want to believe that. After I got home, I called the hot, stoner girl that I work with and we've got a date set up on Saturday. Rebound girl, baby!