Well.. I feel shitty again.

Yes, I would like you to take down those pictures, Sov. I'll take some more recent ones and upload them. Anyway, Shinto, I don't want to say those things to her because I'm still furious. I don't want to even see her, which is kinda hard considering I sit right behind her in 1st period.

I just don't fucking understand. She loves me yet breaks up with me. I'm being punished because she isn't right with God right now.

I even asked her what's gonna happen if she gets married. What happens when she says "I do" and then realizes that she loves her husband over God a little bit more for that moment. Is she gonna have to get a divorce or what? Yeah, I'm a smartass when I'm pissed off.

I also asked her if she's going to have kids. She said yes. But I responded with, "How is that gonna work out? You're making a baby with the person you love. That's a big step and that's gonna take time out from God! What if he asks you to become celibate and never experience the joy of having kids?" She says, "If that's what he wants me to do, then I'll do it."

I fucking hate this.