Diet and Eating Habits

I wake up everyday and the first thing that goes in my system is a few vicodins. After a 20 minute shower I drink a cup of coffee and just keep doing that all day and don't eat till damn near 2 or 3... my diet is fucked.

Addiction hitting you hard or is this for pleasure?

Most likely addiction, but I tell myself it's pleasure. I've quit about 4 times in the past 6 months just to test my self-control and see if I can acctually do it, but I relapse and tell myself that "I can quit anytime I want". At it's finest.

Hopefully you can trick your brain into thinking that it's pleasure. Drugs are supposed to be fun and not need to keep your body from convulsing and the like.

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I plan on eating more proteins and dairy to build muscle.

I've been drinking about a gallon of 2% milk every 2-3 days, subbing in whole sometimes. I make pretty poor diet choices overall, though, mostly related to portion control. Fortunately, I don't really show it (other than maybe some skin problems) but I'm sure it's doing terrible things for my health. I've been trying to make an effort to at least eat healthy things, but I still eat binge style for the most part. I rarely eat breakfast, my "breakfast" is usually junk food out of the vending machines at work.

I'd be lost without a good breakfast. I love having a big healthy breakfast right after my morning workout session. It's also a reason to not drink caffeine.

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I remember while I was working at a gas station that the most common breakfast was Mt. Dew, Snickers, and Marlboro Reds. This was mostly construction workers in the summer. You'd get the occasional coffee and Little Debbies occasionally.