Eh... I'm not sure thats entirely whats going on then w/ you but ok...
1. Your male
2. You've been warped enough to desire that then at such an age further proves my point. You will continue this path.
I'm telling you. It's all programming. They are sublimanly(sp) telling those all those kids what to consume, how to dress, how to interact with each other. It's disgusting, and I'll be damned if my daughter ever watches shit like that.