Sorry dude, i lost some good friends a couple of summers ago and know what pain feels like. I saw a school counselor and it helped some. Hope everything gets better for you
I wonder if Kyeruu is really daft enough to do it twice, though - not only another account, but he's posted threads in here before about relatives and/or friends dying.
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If it is genuine, then I'm sorry for your loss, AJB13.