My Stay at Hospital Plus the bad news.

the even more fucked thing is i have to take 30 of some wierd tablets a day. and they have messed up side effects. if i go out in direct sunlight i end up with huge rashes.

I am sorry, best advise I can give is live your life like you always wanted, make your time worth while.

I wouldn't call it quits yet. However yea, this experience will surely give you a new appreciation for life that only such a situation could give.