Dream On

I agree with you about the "not being satisfied with what I do" part, and I've had thoughts about what it would be like if I was the main character in a game of some kind. Once, I had a dream of everyone disappearing as soon as I looked away, and as I turn back to them, they have only made some kind of progress as a computer has pre-calculated their expected movement.

Although I might be insane, I hardly ever feel scared, weak or stressed over things. I know there are lots of possibilities in the world, but it's no longer an issue to me, as I know I will end up someplace sooner or later.

Oh, and I've never lost anyone close, I'm just good at imagining what most feelings are alike.