I have kind of gotten myself into some fucked up shit so I will start from the begining please give me some advice!
about 5 months ago I went to this dance and got really close to this girl that night her name is Pou
well we talked and she was like everything I seemed to need
we went outside and spent some "quality" time together and I could have swore I fell in love with her that night and many of the feelings still linger...
a couple days later she told me she had to move to california and that she didn't want to go so we spent that night together and we stayed close for a while after writing letters and making plans to see each other ,
well I happened to ruin that when I started doing red devils again and she found out she told me if I ever did them again that she would do something stupid and I just recently found out that it was due to my actions that I made her cry straight for a week and become depressed (also she started to drink)
after a while started to get used to her being gone and hopped up on the love game again when like about 2 months ago me and this girl edith have started to get closer (edith happens to be pou's first cousin) well me and her have been doing so much together and I can tell we are starting to fall for each other. all is well until me and Pou talked on the phone last night and I let her know I finally quit red devils and I began to talk to her about the boy she is seeing down there (her sister told me earlier all about her street racer boyfriend) and she denied it then she asked me to hold on and went to her sister (I could hear everything but she didn't know I could) and started yelling at her about why she told me and that she is going to break up with him when she comes back up here (Utah) and then we talked some more and she told me that she will be coming up here today and that she should be here about 2 am (she told me to stay up and coem see her when she gets here) she told me all htis yesterday and today I learned she is going to be staying with edith while she is here...
I have a lot of feelings for both of these girls and seriously don't know what to do
the only plan I have so far is when Pou gets here goto her and let edith see and then see how she reacts and only by that would I be able to know which one I want more but I do not know if I could do that to edith and I don't know if I can stop myself from telling pou how I feel about her cousin (edith)
One of my main problems is that Pou might be staying here and she might be going back
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