There's a demon inside of me. Can I kill it?

Seems like feelings are a double edged sword. She makes me very happy, but a consequence of this is that the time spent without her seems to be somehow lacking. I miss her. Not to the point of collapse, but it's a nagging feeling that I'm not used to. Hopefully it will calm down with time.

That's badass.

You're on the road to love, my friend. Greatest feeling in the world. Let her love you back.

Indeed? That only begets more confusion. My grievance with love is its relative nature. There is no set rubric for determining the presence of love. It would be preferable to say "ah, my feelings register as 8.5, 8 is the threshold for love, so I am in love!"

All I know is that my feelings at this moment in time already are greater in magnitude than they were in any of my past relationships. And I used the word love in the past. Would you not say that if my affection is even greater than it was when I said 'I love you,' that I love her? Or perhaps both are premature. There is no way to say! How inane!

There is no logic with or in love. Love is all captured and fufilled with the other side of your brain. You can't turn love into an equation, there are too many variables.

well a recent relationship of mine ended badly ..... control of power in the relationship

You mean she tried to control the power of your perpetual energy device?