My sister is the strangest
suicidal person I know. She wasn't blessed with a whole lot of brains
(But damn, she's got one hell of a body.), and continuously talks about how much better life would be without her. She's always saying "I should just kill myself and get it over with!" or "I bet you'd be happy if I died, wouldn't you!?"
(Which I wouldn't be.).
The only thing that actually keeps her from committing suicide is the fact that she's horrified of how much it would hurt, or if she would suffer. She has a pain-phobia. Yet, she's also a masochist. She loves to hit her self, because it brings her pleasure. But if the pain is unexpected, she begins to freak out, and eventually black's out completely. It's happened before, and all she did was shut her thumb in the car door for a few seconds.
I've had my whole hand slammed into a door. All I did was cry a little and get over it. A little bit of pain for her and she faints. Unless she's actually inflicting the pain on herself on purpose, and then she enjoys it. And yet she's horrified of death, but wants to die.
I've never been
suicidal, personally. My grandparents thought I might be because I kept to myself a lot at one point, and so they made me see a shrink. Feh. Shrinks.
I've had a worse life than my sister, and she knows that. I used to be worried about her when she'd threaten suicide, but now it's just rather annoying. I told her exactly how I would feel if she actually did it, and I nearly cried telling her, and she giggled at me.
Giggled!
Bah!
- Edit -
...Oops...Didn't mean to rant.

Sorry.