dilema

yea, i know i probably spelled that wrong. but that's not the point.

Ok so basically, for the past few months, things haven't been that good. At all. But yesterday and the day before that were just so unbelievably amazing, and I actually am genuinely happy. More than I've been in a long time. And I want it to stay like this, I really do.

But here's the problem, I am really happy, but I feel like I shouldnt. Some bad shit has happened also. My good friend is in the hospital. I don't know too many details or anything, but it's not that good. Also, my parents got their taxes done and we somhow lost or were denied $8,000. Again, I don't know too many details but we're not in a good place right now.

Is it wrong for me to be happy? I mean i've just been having such a great time lately and it's been MONTHS since i could say i truly was happy. And yea, I feel bad, but am I a bad person for not being more upset? Should I stop being happy and worry about my friend or my family?