I am going to be the next hitler

Same I'm of buhdism as well, it's not fare to be so cruel to other people because you can't find the suffering in yourself and cleanse it.

I'm trying to learn Pali/Sanskrit so that I can read the original documents for myself instead of the translated stuff, but the language is irrational and very confusing. I'm still on the path of finding myself and who I am, it's very hard to keep with this way of life when you come up against as many obstacles as I do.

My choice in friends for example can probably effect the way I live my life.