what do you think of me

no seriuisly what. im not asking for some special attention or anything i jus want to know. y because i don't want to be remembered as zelarons last nail in the coffin. please no flames i want real critisms especially from the mods about what im doing wrong or right. i also want you to forget the "flame me" thread i know it was a the1 idea jus forget it for a minute and look through my other threads. i swear your opinions won't fall on deaf ears i will listen and do. and if you want me to shut up permanently or ban me i will