Weed free for 6 months

The lack of motivation to do anything is the main reason for quitting, aside from other weird mental issues that arose.

Actually I do remember quite a bit of it, but in bits and pieces. The problem was, I spent a lot of time thinking about irrelevant things, more-so than legitimate life issues. I got to a point where I would manifest my thoughts on something so completely stupid that I felt I might be retarded, or maybe autistic or something. But no, I don't plan on writing a book, not atleast until i'm an old man with something worth reading.

I got to a point where I would manifest my thoughts on something so completely stupid that I felt I might be retarded, or maybe autistic or something.

Well shit, I do that, and I've never even tried drugs before.
Did you ever try scenarios? Like, you make us a situation, put people in it, and then (basically) put your brain in auto-pilot and see how it came out? I do it all the time, and it's usually surprisingly right.

yeah, absolutely. I've always done it even as a kid, but I think ganja makes it worse. I'm not sure who else out there may think in this way, but I know I certainly have.

Does weird shit you know would never happen ever happen? Like, another dude kissing you? Just asking.

No, I don't fantasize or imagine anything homosexual, not that I can remember. It's usually visualizing situations that I think I will encounter later on in the day, beforehand. Contemplation with visualization.

Yeah, I know. But, I mean, does it ever happen by accident? It happened to me, once, and I like forced my mind to stop thinking after that.
It wasn't anything completely homo, it was just a kiss, and he was the one doing it, not me, so...

Subconcious desire?