Are you lonely?

As you know I was extremly on monday and im still not over loneliness.

Today at the skatepark my friend sean said to me "i saw the text you sent to cross on monda night saying that u are lonely and dont know what to do after lauren broke up with you" and he started laughing.

And he still has the nerve to ask why I wont explain exactly how I feel about some situations(like this) to him.

Im lonely......

I just wish people were truthful.....you know it sucks that you have to play the game in order to get girls.....why cant you just admit you like each other and thats it?

I thought I finally found soembody thatc ared for me as much as I did for her then one day she flips out of the blue and fucks things up......

Yep... it's bullshit.

no i actually like being alone most of the time. I find i have my best thoughts and ideas when i just hang out by myself. If i do have a craving for social interaction i can just call up some friends and we do things together so i am not completely alone.

I just find that i like myself a whole lot better if I am by myself because then i dont have to "show off" for any girls or act like a complete ass to fit in with other people. I am ME and I enjoy being me. Think about it for a minute if you are not hanging out with your friends dont you act alot different? I am all about being me, meaning that i try to act like myself but i catch my self doing things that i would not normally do when i hang out with my friends. Which is both good and bad. Good in the sense that i am trying new and different things, broadining my horizons. Bad in the sense that what we do is not always "legal" and i would probably not be doing it if i was not with other people.

I have had some girlfriends, I really liked this one girl but I think she just liked me for my body or something, she was hot and I really wanted to make things work so I took her "shit" you could say. But I'm glad that's over.