What is it with me?

I've gotten into one of my moods again. The one that no one ever hears about and probably wouldn't care to hear about.

People closest to me know I give advice and confidence to them. Yeah, I've done that for about 2 years total now. But there's a problem. I don't really give a fuck about their problems any more. In fact, I kinda don't even are about the people themselves. That makes me feel really empty on the inside. I'm just...*sigh*I'm feeding lies. Something I hate. I don't believe what I say anymore. When did I realize this? Today. I'm having some inner conflicts over how I feel about my ex and other things. Well, I can't give myself advice, can I/ If all I know how to do is make people feel better about themselves, etc., what am I really going to do for myself? Of course, I could lie to myself and live the lie of "advice giving friend". But that is just wrong. Building up people's confidences through lying is not good to anyone.

Next, I don't know myself as well as I had hoped. I'm talking in the sense of I don't completely understand myself. I need to understand myself to be whole again. I used to think I understood myself. But I don't. I really don't. So thus this issue was brought up. I don't have advice for myself. I realized because I don't know myself, I don't really have answers. Bah, that kinda makes sense and yet doesn't to me. I feel lost right now. I'm not looking for answers right now, I'm looking for someone to at least console me...more importantly, I kinda want someone to hold me...>.<