Fuckin life

So my weekend was pretty shitty, here's how it went down:

Previously my grandma who is currently living with me had a heart attack about 2 weeks ago. Since then she went to the hospital, and then into a nursing home. Friday she then had a stroke in the nursing home and has been in the hospital ever since. I went to see her today, since my dad has been basically living there for the past 3 days. (This is my Dad's mom) The doctors said today that she has about 48 hours to live, but they'll try a surgery that might help. Unfortunately she also has a virus infection and the surgery itself could kill her.

Its just rough getting close to a family member and then watching them die, but I'm more concerned with my dad. I can't take seeing him cry and shit it just pisses me off I guess... Not pissed at him but pissed that it's happening to him, I just feel bad.

Saturday morning comes along and I find out that my Sister's (almost) Fiance got into a snowmobiling accident. He was riding on some trails and someone's snowmobile had died and they just left it in the middle of the trail. Well he hit the snowmobile head on and someone found his body laying in the snow about 30-50 feet from the accident, unconscious. He is also a good friend of mine, so this made me more upset. The latest I heard was that his brain was swelled 3 times than it's normal size, and that he could die within 24 hours. The medicine they gave him to reduce the swelling didn't do anything, so now they're trying a different medicine. He's been unconscious now for about 50+ hours and it's not looking good. :/

Anyway.. that was my shitty weekend. Ive never had any close family member die, and to have my grandma and a good friend both die would be a huge blow to my psychological stability. (which is already not very stable) I also feel really bad for my sister, since she had moved about 100 miles north of where she was staying, to live and go to college with him.. And now she's talking about dropping out of college and coming home for awhile.

blah, fuck life at the moment.