Suicidal

Ever been suicidal or just really depressed? Post here if you are or ever were and tell why if it's not 2 personal.

For me I guess it's basically on and off. Sometimes I seriously feel suicidal, but then it goes away...so its no big deal. But there was a time I was suicidal for a while...or at least i think. I wanted 2 kill myself but never worked up the guts 2. The weird thing is...i dont even know what i was so depressed about...i just was. Is that normal?!?!...lol...i dunno.

Yes i was suicidal and depressed. This was 3 years ago, mind you so things have changed. When the love of my life (at the time ) dumped me, i went insaine. I felt so alone, and thought of kiling myself mutiple times. (the thoughts, not actually killling myself, you only have to do that once). I got some help and luckily i am over her and my suicidal tendancies. But it did suck. Very hard times, not knowing if you would let yourself live for a day more.

You know...sometimes I wish I never liked girls. Don't get me wrong I would like 2 fuck em and all but I wish I didn't like...wait...like is not the right word...sometimes I wish I didn't love a specific girl cuz for a while it's great but then the pain from that if it's over is also pretty bad...

I thought about it for a while then realized I'm a dumbass for even thinking it. Besides I'm too lazy to carry it out to begin with.

I used to be. Not anymore though.
It is too personal to say why, but there were quite a few reasons, not just piddly shit. I tried to carry it out many times, but people kept interfering or it didnt work out how I planned, etc.

no one has the right to commit suicide
for essentially ur life is not ur own to give

and that is what kept me from seriously considering suicide
altho i did for a period of time desire a "way out" so to speak

It matters not whether you win or lose; what matters is whether I win or lose.

Shinto it's good that you're feeling better now but seriously you're scaring me.

no one has the right to commit suicide for essentially ur life is not ur own to give

You have NO right to tell other people what they can and cant do with theire own lives. Not everybody is as big of a religious zealot as you.

It matters not whether you win or lose; what matters is whether I win or lose.

I never have been, though it is normal..

no one has the right to commit suicide for essentially ur life is not ur own to give and that is what kept me from seriously considering suicide altho i did for a period of time desire a "way out" so to speak

and so whose life is it...
if it's not my life that i am living than what is this?!?!

It is your right to take your own life, it is just selfish. You'll be causing a shitload of pain to other people, to those who care about you, whether or not you want to believe those people exist, for all, they do. It just creates a chain of suicides... You kill yourself... Your brother gets depressed, after about 6 months or so finally decides to end it, then your sister, or your parents, whatever. It just makes no sense.

Work through the bad things, concentrate on the good things, and the future. Because your future will be better, you just have to quit being so goddamned lazy and do a little bit of work for it, other than accepting the pain again and again of less than mediocre life. Get off your ass, and work for a better future for yourself, and those around you. Start small, then work your way up. You'll get there.

/END OF AFTER-SCHOOL SPECIAL

Makes sense DFD. I agree that it is selfish, and probably would cause pain to some people. But then if you're thinking about killing yourself...its hard 2 think about other ppl at teh same time. I also don't like it that it's illegal to take your own life...there is no way that i shouldnt be able 2 take my own life if i really wanted 2. But yea...i know if i did kill myself my sister would be depressed...and hopefully my parents as well. My sister really does look up 2 me. Other than not having the guts 2 do it she was the other reason that i could never bring myself 2 it. I guess your right...wallowing in self-pity does no good whatsoever but it's hard sometimes not 2...but it must be done.

but then again...i believe it's my right 2 take my life if i want 2...

It matters not whether you win or lose; what matters is whether I win or lose.

sorry i couldnt resist the wording

in all honesty i am not highly religious and am.. for lack of a better term agnostic
tho i do still stand by this saying in a different sense

the ability to exist or live.. be it a curse or a gift.. is given as to allow you to become a part of existence.. a part of life.. a part of the human race.. and to survive and allow life to continue existing
to throw away ur own life for the reasons of.. for lack of a better term.. weakness.. is to neglect one of the greatest of responsibilities if not the ultimate

in another sense:
the ability to think and make the choice of self destruction is a product of ur existence
you are contradicting not only your own thoughts but ur entire existence

so by suiciding you are not only being untrue to the world
but also to yourself and your own being
in this sense there is no justification or "right" for ending ur own existence
even from a selfish point of view

the only justification i can see at all is the "right" of "choice"
but even ur ability of choice is contradicted

It matters not whether you win or lose; what matters is whether I win or lose.

I'm not suicidal, but I do take pills for depression...

i was suicidal for like 3 minutes when i was emotionally hurt, i don't want to talk about it.

God, and Jesus Christ.

This God and Jesus guy are some funny fella.
When you talk to them your praying.
But when hear them. Your crazy.