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Posted 2009-10-28, 09:49 PM
in reply to Grav's post "There's a demon inside of me. Can I..."
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Hello friends. I have begun a new relationship, but because I am in such a transitional period of my life, I initially compartmentalized it into a very specific role before it even started: "practice." I went looking for a suitable partner for the purpose of adding another notch to my belt, knowing full well that I would move on in time. But this girl that I have become enamored with is too sweet. I sincerely enjoy her company and being around her (trust me, this is rare). She makes me happy, and I make her happy. I haven't giggled this much in years. It's the most comfortable start I've ever had. And I feel like a fucking asshole.
How can I deactivate my own conspiring mind and just... be? I am tired of over-thinking everything that I do. I would like to just ride this one out without doing a cost/benefit analysis of my every move. Any advice?
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I have no advice, because I think I am in the same boat, or even more severe...
For me, I am just saying, "Fuck it!" And if I start to analyze something, I just tell myself, "Do it, and you'll know and not have to make stupid guesses!  " I'm tired of the life I'm living right now, so the only way make a meaningful change is to make a major difference in how I perform.
Hope everything works out for you!
 R.I.P
Pontiac
Jan. 1926 - Dec. 2010 est.
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