D3V said:
It's weird, because I absolutely despise druggies, potheads, anybody that thinks it's the shit to "trip-out" on drugs, and yet this Salvia really intrigues me now.
I'd also like to know more about the voice, if you can explain it a bit more, how exactly was it controlling you? I noticed you mentioned supernatural, which is cool, maybe possibly it was a gateway to an alternate existance? HMM? Idk, seriously though good write-up.
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The voice had no physical form, although I seem to attribue a face to it which I can't really describe. As to how it controlled me, I have no idea. I don't really know how to explain it. I most definitely was not controlling myself, and I just had this feeling of being a puppet being controlled by The Voice. I've got a few theories about The Voice, though.
The Mazatec shaman that used this stuff and as far as I know still use this stuff used it to enter the "realm of the gods." Perhaps The Voice was a goddess of some sort, maybe a goddess that is specific to me and only exists for me.
I also suspect that The Voice could be this "Lady Salvia" people talk about. When people say "Meeting Lady Salvia", they don't literally mean that Lady Salvia is a person or thing, it's pretty much just another way of saying "Smoking Salvia." However, a lot of people seem to report hearing a female voice, and I suspect that this voice may be where the name Lady Salvia originally came from. I suppose it
did feel somewhat like The Voice was the same as the drug. I would almost say that The Voice was the drug with a voice.
I also suspect that The Voice might have been my subconscious or something, or maybe it was something similar. It could be what I remember my mothers voice as being when I was very, very young. I'm really unsure.
I do know that The Voice is very intriguing, and the simple fact that it seemed to know and understand everything has made me want to hopefully meet it again and actually be able to talk to it.
If you have anymore questions just ask. You might actually bring back things I hadn't thought about.