It's frightening because I've been raised a Christian. My whole family is Christian. If they knew I was having these thoughts, I'm likely to go to a hardcore evangelist for some straightening out.

Also, I went to a church camp once and I wasn't a believer. At the end of the week, I was. This evangelist speaker was speaking in front of probably 300 kids and at the time I was thinking "There's no way this can be real.." and the dude walked off stage and came up to me, grabbed my chest and starting praying over me. Something overcame me, I fell over.. (maybe I was pushed), I don't know. It's hard to explain. Is it a coincidence he came up to me in particular? Who knows.

But, now that I've looked at both sides of things and really researched it, I'm leaning towards Atheism. Or as I like to call it, Realism.