I understand that completely, and from a logical point of view I agree with you in every way. However, emotion and logic rarely, if ever run parallel to one-another. It's a simple task to overcome one's own internal issues, but it is by no means an easy one. There's nothing thougher in this world than trying to re-train emotional and mental habits, regardless of the fact that the process is an extremely simple one.

I know precisely what I need to do, and I understand the consequences that await me if I do not follow through. I understand that by locking myself away like this, I'm doing more harm than I am protecting myself.

I posted this not necessarily for advice, or consolation, but simply because I needed to get it off my chest. I just needed to vent, and it's done me a certain amount of good to do so. Thanks for everyone's input.