I've thought a lot about my whole situation today. We have first period together and didn't say a word.. I haven't talked to her since the break up. I feel like a total ass. I said some things Sunday night that I'll never be able to forget. I was so fucking mean to her and I feel horrible about it. I realize now that I should have never called the stoner chick so quick. We're supposed to go out Saturday night on a date, but I'm going to call her in a few and invite her to a party on Saturday. So, it's really not a date because there will be a lot of people, but I still feel guilty.

Anyway, I tried calling her cell after school today numerous times. She doesn't pick up and she isn't home. I donno what to do. Bleh, I'm real confused. Love shouldn't be this hard.