I really can't think of much positive to say here, but I will try my hardest.

The reason I go on living is for the people around me that care for me, and the fact that I care about how they would feel if I died. I don't want my siblings or friends or my parents or any one else mourning over my death. If I were to die somehow, I'd try my hardest before I died to get some sort of message out to tell the people I care about that I am "in a better place".... or something.

Gtg foos.