well... hmm i just felt like posting about this...

My mom just called the animal vets or somethin to come pick up one of my dogs because she is sick or just getting old. She has been blind for 2 weeks now... and cant get herself up to even walk now. I was out with her a second ago and she woke up.. tried to get up after she heard my voice but she couldent... i tried to say goodbye in anyway i could... gah im so sad right now...

Dogs name was Katara, she was part wolf and part siberian husky. She was the 'outside' dog, because we also have a little white dog that stays inside. We let her inside the last couple weeks and she seems to enjoy the cooler temperatures and would just sit there. I rember yelled at her just a week ago for leaving the kitchen because she had so much hair... Gah im such an asshole... I nearly never spent time with her the last 4 years mostly because she was always outside... i spent my time on the other dog and now im just so pissed at myself because i diddnt spend the time i know is hould of...

Right now... i dont really belive in an afterlife, so this i guess is harder for me then it would be if i did... Gah i cant stand it... Just yesterday she was walkin around a bit now she cant control herself at all or eat. When i go out there she wakes up a bit to just kinda blindly stare in my direction with this really sad face and i just...

My other dog is Whining right in front of me... hes crying i guess he knows... either he senses im sad or he knows somethin bad is going on...

*sigh* i dont know what the other dogs gonna do...

ok well the people just pulled in =x im not going back out there..

I got ONE picture of the 2 dogs together thats it...I had 2 dogs that passed away before this one but we diddnt put them to sleep they died ... in the yard or on the porch. This dog is the puppy of my other 2 dogs and ive known her the longest.

I dunno, i dont remeber the last time ive felt like this , all sad... hmm the other dog is now barking at the people taking his.. friend..

Well i think ill stop now... Just wanted to write about this for some reason..