I think it's time to give up, now.
 

I suppose I'll commit suicide. Are there any slow, not-so-painful was to do it? I want to go unnoticed, until the last minute, and maybe have the chance to change my mind, so I don't want anything instant, like weapons or drinking a thing of bleach. Starving would be noticed, as well, as I simply like to eat, and everyone I know likes to cook.
I'm considering continuous food poisoning.

I'm not able to be talked out of this, so if you attempt that, I'll simply ask /b/ or some fuckers on Gaia.

Start smoking cigarettes.

I see so many of these threads on /b/. You're a pussy and weakling and you won't kill yourself and if you were you wouldn't be asking for advice. You'd be searching for ways to do it and leaving no indication of it coming. But that's not going to happen.

Fuck off, Skurai.

As someone here posted on Zelaron a long time ago... Tie your pubes together and hang yourself with them.

I like that one. Or he can become a bug chaser and get infected with HIV and never take any medications. That could lead to a slow, agonizing death.

You're an idiot.

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Having had my severe highs and lows with manic depression, the thought of suicide does bounce around in my brain. It's like an unwanted house guest; it should leave and never come back. The single most selfish act that one could do. All you are doing is looking for attention. Find something with a relatively high LD50 and ingest half of that amount over a period of time. I guarantee it will be a slow and painful death. Moron.

I haven't considered suicide as a fix for depression in a long time. These days when I contemplate suicide, it has nothing to do with being unhappy with my situation and everything to do with having no hope in our species and not wanting to see what we do during my lifetime. Things seem to be getting worse on a daily basis. Sometimes I think the quick release in death would make it all easier than watching everything go to shit and feeling like I can't do anything about it. Our species, or more specifically the people in it, are getting more and more stupid as time passes. Friends that I used to consider intelligent and rational thinkers are among them, and that scares me more than anything. I think some part of me is scared that if I hang around, the same thing is going to happen to me.

But K_A... it already has.

To some degree it has, yeah, but I like to think it's the pot and not society influencing me.

You're one of the most bitter and cynical people I know. And I know the internet.

It's rather fascinating, isn't it?

Nobody cares what you think Mr. Messiah Complex. Why don't you go fix some more broken girls with the awesomeness that is you?

Even if this was my M.O., it's still better than simply hating everyone and everything. Hiding behind the shield of nihilism is not a replacement for goals or personal responsibility.

I'm going to need some citation on the fact that I hate everyone and everything. Perhaps you are drawing conclusions based on preconceived notions rather than actual data.

Wouldn't mind some citation on me replacing my goals and personal responsibility with nihilism, too. I have plenty of goals I'm actively working toward and I don't blame my personal problems on anyone but myself. Unless you can somehow prove otherwise, you're full of shit.

Well, at least you hate yourself in addition to everything else. That's well-rounded.

Ooh! Ooh! Analyze me!

What the fuck is your problem, man? You must really need an ego boost or something. You seem to have a hardon for me. I never implied that I hate myself or anyone else, in fact I actively keep hate out of my life because it is like cancer. If you're going to profess to know me, at least educate yourself. If you continue after this I'm going to assume you are trolling and handle it appropriately.

I don't know what to say to this but it's not like you to get so upset. I'm sorry if I hurt your feelings.

I laughed. I really needed it too. Thanks.