I fucken hate myself
 

Like the title says, i truely hate myself right now. Im going to tell a tale that u all are probably going to laugh at and still not think its a big deal. But it is.

Last night i was at a retreat up in Mass when the announcement said that we were leaving due to the weather. My friend snuck abord the bus booze and we drank alot, half a handle before we even got back to school. I went to talk to friends while he finshed off the bottle. He blacked out and went to bed. Since i was drunk and wanted to do something, i went out with another frined to a party. I apparently went balckout cause i dont remember anything and got kicked out. I dont remember the night and that sucks. Whats even worse is that the friend i went with wont even talk to me.

In all, i lost my cell phone so that is a major problem. I lost a friend and i have no memeory. I truely hate myself.



Oh and by the way, i ran in the snow naked.

I understood about 15% of that. Can you make it a little more clear?

Stop drinking so much.

Yeah, and I got the idea that you were drunk when you decided you oughta post stuff like:

Hmm.. maybe lay off the alcohol for a while?

Jeez.

Ouch.

Any idea why the friend won't talk to you?

And yes, I agree, lay off the drink for a bit.

wow dude, not to get into your life so much, but that amount of booze you're drinking is going to ruin your life, even though it feels good. not that you probably haven't noticed that.

Yeah it's shitty losing your cellphone during a black out.

Well... you keep losing friends and now your cell phone too. Maybe this is a wake-up call to cut back on the alcohol, dude.

lol yeah.......loosing cell phone due to alcohol sucks...one time i was at a friend's party and i got shitfaced and puked....well the idiots tried to be nice and they washed my clothes......but they didnt take anything out of my pockets, they just threw them in the washer :(

Lost like $200 cell phone
$50 cash
and a bunch of cards and phone numbers =(

Listen to this: a friend of mine ate 2 xanax bars and was drinking on some beer. As most people know, this is not a good equation heh. I wasn't there but apparently, he was at a party and was supposed to be taken to a house later where he could crash.. someone would drive him there. Well, somehow the person that was supposed to take him ended up with my friend's shoes/socks and left him at the party when everyone was leaving. Instead of being smart like calling people or whatnot, my friend made the 2 to 3 mile trek to his house on an Indiana interstate barefoot. Somehow he made it, but lost his car keys and cellphone in the progress.

The next day, he called me on his house phone and I picked him up to go help him find his car. He had no idea where it was because he couldn't remember shit. We ended up finding it at a Kroger parking lot and both rear-view mirrors were smashed in.

And this is why you don't take pills! :rolleyes:

i think that is just about as much as he understands too lol

We have a saying in our group of friends. Whenever it is cold as hell outside, and we see white people walking outside with a short or T-shirt, we yell out WPC.

so...... WPC!

Drunks emos are the worst kind.

Oh man -- what the fuck?

WPC?

White something or other?

Anyone else have a better guess? Or shall I reveal the answer.

heh I think it should be CWP - Cold White Person

Ooooh!!

White Person Charging?

Don't listen to these noobs Gruesome, beer is for men! Men I tell you, men!

Oh, and your friend will get over it. Give it a day or two.

so you like beer, eh? no offence but, alright titusfied, tell me, would you like to have the time of you life drinking things that will turn you into a person like my grandpa who has parkinson's disease? in case you don't know what it is, here is a definition for you.

Par·kin·son's disease; noun
A progressive nervous disease occuring most often after the age of 50, associated with the destruction of brain cells that produce dopamine and characterized by muscular tremor, slowing of movement, partial facial paralysis, peculiarity of gait and posture, and weakness.

oh, and by the way, beer can and most likely, if not for sure, kill brain cells(as does all things containg alcohol). so in short you could end up like my grandpa who couldn't speak in a way that you could understand him. he couldn't move without falling down, and he couldn't do anything but move his eyes..... so be a man, yes? live to be about 50 and then lose all chance of knowing your grand kids and possibly you own kids as well. it was hard to see my grandpa live like he did. i never knew him at all :( so go and drink beer and die outside w/out dying inside we'll see if you regret it then.

Science you dont understand the extremity of his situation(titusfied).

He is a young man, not a man. But im just a kid so i cant really call him by a young man. Anyways, Titus wont be drinking his whole life. He wont grow up an alcoholic, seriously, i'd do him right now. He just drinks because he likes to party and he likes to party becuase he likes nice bitches and hoes all up in his grill and what not.

Take it easy, he was joking.

sorry, i just don't see the point in drinking alchohol. stuff like that(and smoking) ruined my gramps life and i don't want that to happen to anyone else. his later life was pure hell. sides isn't drinking addicting? correct me if im wrong, but doesn't that mean that you can't stop?

whathefuck

Well, you are probably too young. Trust me, not everyone is a fuck up that becomes an alcoholic after drinking a few beers. I'm 24 dude, in the prime of my life, and I enjoy beer. It's not ruining my life.

Although, I'd probably murder a couple priests just to get a jug of wine. Is that so bad? Does that mean I have a problem? (Sciencekid, this is sarcasm, just in case you're too fucking dense to pick up on the subtleties.)

Silly Ditus. You don't need to drink alcohol! You can have all the 13 year old ass you want in the form of slaynish.

Sooner or later you're gonna have to be exposed to the real world man.. Stop living such a sheltered life maybe?

Anyway, you can stop doing anything that is addicting. Just because it's addicting doesn't mean you'll never stop. That's what rehab is for!

And it is also key to note that there is no chemical addictions in alcohol (to my knowledge), it is all a mental addiction.

I drink socially, and I like it. I don't plan to stop any time soon, but I sure as hell know I am not addicted.

PS: Are you sure that excessive drinking can lead to Parkinsons? I believe that it is a purely genetic disorder.

Bashing your head against a paddock door kills brain cells. Especially if you manage to brain yourself going into the stable area, and then on the way out.

Rehab is for quitters!

It's amazing what people can get away with these days. Take Pete Doherty. He's just been charged and found guilty of 7 counts of drug abuse and whatnot, for something like the 5th time, and he's been sentenced to a year of rehab, and monthly checkups. Not much for a druggie.

Thanatos: actually for some ppl's addictions, in rehab they just get them addicted to something else that is less dangerous while the withdraw happens.

Titusfied: yes I can detect sarcasm, but sometime i play along and deliver a kick of realism. and that's good that you aren't addicted to it and can hold your own. also don't cuss at me, i never cussed at you. :)

Jamesadin: i'm 99% sure. i'll have to talk to my grandma to be 100% sure that it is a genetic thing or not. i do know however that my grandpa had a pretty bad lifestyle when it came to burning brain cells, although he could play like, 12 chess games at once. or at least that's what i remember my dad telling me. anyway the cause if it, so far as i know are a combination of different things, which can include defective genes.(i just did a search on the web).

I'm not so sure about that, because alcoholism is genetic. Native Americans are very prone to be alcoholics because they went thousands of years without alcohol and then when they got it it pwned them, at least if I remember the story right. The point is, it's not just a mental addiction.

I dont really post a lot but when I do you are always there to make me feel like shit.

Thanks grav, you really brightened up my day!

Fuck you.

Bitch.

Haha!

How're things going with this friend? Made up yet or found out the reason they aren't talking to you?

what did i ever do to you?! ok fine! what ever i did, im sorry, ok? geez!

Sarcasm is our friend! Yay!

What does that even mean? Stop being emo.

*stage whisper*I think he's being sarcy man!*/stage whisper*

He want mad at me. He was mad at the girl that was trying to hook up with me that night cause he wanted a piece. Oh and i found my phone in a middle of a field. But the sad thing is that i already got my new one and this one is deactivited. By law i have to send it back and that costs an extra 20 bucks.

And i have stopped drinking for a while. Well at least till my spring break.