Lol! Well it sucks being 21 when you just want somebody you can trust and call your own, even if you aren't having kids and moving away together to start a life...

Well, I guess good news from a "guys" perspective. She is still talking to me, sent me a picture today of her while she was at work, and told me she hopes I feel better...

Lol, she then tells me tonight, about 10 minutes ago that she's 'frustrated'. I'm like well with what you know... and it was followed up with a "haha oh,... nothing".

Yeah, so I throw in "Well, Im not exactly sure of the rules we have as "just friends" but i'm sure I can help out with that".. Lol, wow well lost a possible love but might gain a fuckbuddy? Shit.

Also, I messaged my First ex spilling my guts to her over a course of about 30 minutes last night too.. I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me.

im sayin if i didnt :P

STOP IT YOU BUFFOON. You need to get over this chick and stop spazzing out about her. Maybe your current interest isn't sure about you guys because she thinks you still have feelings for your ex? Girls are intuitive, man, hide your emotions about your ex around your current chick! Don't even bring her up in ANY conversation.. not once.

And I'm 100% with you on the older females idea. I'm lookin for one right now, I think I may have found somebody at work here actually. I hate young, dumb bitches. I want somebody I can have an intellectual conversation with.

wow... and you dont think you're a young dumb guy? that is a serious insult for the girls that want to be taken seriously by guys when all the guys want is a stupid fuckbuddy.

I don't want a "stupid fuckbuddy." I've said previously that I would like to find a good girl that I can make my long-term girlfriend.. the problem is finding one. Older females (23 - 27) are more likely to fit in that category of a "good girl" - younger girls.. not so much.

well then i guess i would fit in your category of stupid young girls that arent worth having a relationship with, not that im a fucking party girl or something that gets wasted every night and has one night stands or anything.

Bitches ain't shit but hoes and tricks
Lick on deez nutz and suck the dick
Get's the fuck out after you're done
And I hops in my ride to make a quick run...

Are you implying Thanatos' perfect girl is Kazilla? I don't see how this helps D3v at all.

... maybe KJ, but not D3v.

lol i know you're joking cause its impossible to misinterpret what i was saying.

just fyi i was saying that its not impossible to find a good girl because i am one :) and kaz found me

The problem is that I never did bring up my ex. At all. I was completely over her, just my currently girl and I breaking up just caused me to recede a bit. I quite honestly think she has feelings for her ex still, which she has brought up numerous times, which sucked and I didn't want to hear about it made me iffy to hear her say that at all.

But she hides it very well saying that you know, she doesn't think she could see us being serious blah, blah. Oh well man, life goes on.

And yes, a more mature older female that doesn't want to play games would be wonderful right about now. I'm tired of the nonsense, I just want somebody that actually knows what they want, and not what they think they want. I've been looking in the wrong places for so long, lol.

These are the only girls I've come in contact with the past 5 or so months since me and my last girlfriend split. Fuckin' tired of it, which is why I want an older, more mature female.

well maybe you aren't looking in the right places. try a library :P

Tried it. Libraries don't work.


Moving on to the coffee shop scene.

Good idea, we have a Java Hut around here where some more classy women like to hang out...

Well.. I got some upsetting news last night. . . .


The most recent EX, We'll just call her 'M' texted me last night at like 12:20 or so, and it said: "Hey, I know this will seem like a random question, but when was the last time we 'fucked'".

Right then, the instant I read it I knew something was up.. Anyways.

I tell her it was probably like 3-4 weeks or so; and that it's been a while.

She says, "Well, I missed my period".








...ouch; I was not expecting that to say the least.

I ask her, well 'Are you sure you missed it? Do you want to go get tested?" Things of that nature. She tells me that she was going to get tested either today or sometime next week. While this is going on, my buddies are all drinking and I'm in another world, it's like my current one just started to fall apart, and I started to get worried about a million different things at once. After she tells me that she is going to get tested, I ask her if she would like me to come with her:


She bluntly replies: ... No


That kinda threw me off. So I then ask her, "Well... What if somehow it does come up positive....... what are you wanting to do?"



...She then puts back "I sure as fuck ain havin it" ...


Just like that. That totally blew my mind. To think, abortion is now something that could directly effect my life. I went from an almost high of well I'm going to make the best of whatever happens to.. well, I have no say in it and I am helpless to anything that goes on from this point forward. I ... told her that I didn't know what to say, which still is the truth. I haven't heard from her all day. I'm just, frustrated at myself I suppose. I know that I didn't slip up. She did tell me she's had sex with one other guy since we split, which shows her true colors I suppose.

Basically where I'm getting at is, do you think she is trying to play games with me? Or she blatently just doesn't care, and was just telling me.

I don't even know what to think. I'm going to bed.

4 bad words.... "gunna have to amputate"

Well she sounds like a hoe if she was sleeping with another guy around the same time as you. Which means if she did "miss" her period (which can also happen if she is stressed or something) it could be this other guy's fault, but she wouldn't know unless she got a paternity test.

If she turns out to be pregnant and it's yours, are you even sure you're ready for that? And with someone like HER? In any case, it is her choice because she is the one that's gonna be pregnant and it's her body, so if she wants an abortion, why are you so upset? It kinda lets you off the hook. Why would you want to have a kid right now anyways? Don't you want it to be with someone special and that you're actually gonna be with when you have a kid and not some ex-girlfriend that doesn't want you involved?

4 bad words are can i bottow this- i want this badly

This.