"Love is the irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired."

I'm too much in love with life to end it. Life works a bit like the genius of the hole, as described in Max Payne 2. "No matter how long you climb to get out, you can always fall back down in an instant." And frankly, you're prone to fall at some point. Over and over again. But life goes on, and so shall I. There's always a tomorrow when things always are a LITTLE better than the day before at the very least.

my religion, my family, my friend, video games.
becoming game designer for squaresoft japan live in japan and have a wife and about 12 shildren
wait for my games rpg gamers in future
just 4 more year and i am out to japan
1 year to finish they damn high school
2 year for itt tech
1 year to get some money and sending letter or application to squaresotf

that what kept me going all this years

Everything keeps me going. I've never once thought about suicide. Never. I wake up in the morning thinking about what I'm going to do for the day.

Most of the time, I head over to my girlfriend's house and talk/relax with her. She is the joy of my life. I just know I'm going to get married to her one day. Hell, if I was out of college, I'd marry her right now.

School keeps me going. As rediculous as that sounds, I like school. It keeps me busy. I'm ranked 21 right now going into my senior year and I really want top 20. I'll get there, hopefully.

My family/friends keep me going. I have an awesome family(except for my step-mom, the bitch). They care for me and I care for them. I have awesome friends. They introduced me to a whole lot of illegal stuff and I'm not sure wether to thank them or hate them for that. Anyway, I hang out with them all the time.

Basketball keeps me going. I freaking love basketball. WNBA, NBA, NBDL, Streeball, And 1, Olympic basketball, you name it, I've seen it. I play basketball everyday. I used to be horrible, but now I'm a lot better. I plan on getting in some sport center leagues.

Anyways, those are the things I look forward to. Life rules.

Same with me. Rock on.

Do you have a video card that you dont use around? that'd help more than money.......or I could buy the card w/ money ^^

Try everything in the world that will make me happy, so far, i tried sex, alcohol, yet to dry drug and much much more.

You're still on that video card thing.. Holy sweet merciful crap!!

http://www.zelaron.com/forum/showthread.php?t=24538
http://www.zelaron.com/forum/showthread.php?t=21084

Lol, he really could, it would work too.

I miss all that is Rico GP.

Lets see...Life
I keep going because of my music, games, friends, religon...and my computer
If i lost my computer i would go crazy, i would walk out of my house and maybe come back 4 days late...only because i would be terribly hungry.
My friends mean alot to me...even though i keep trying to help one that is drug-addicted yet it seems to be failing.
My parents.....I can't stand them. They are WAY to controlling and protective. My dad yells 24/7 and its usually because he's cussing at me for some bullshit reason. I HATE and i mean HATE school. FUCK SCHOOL I HOPE IT BURNS.
My siblings....Fuck them
uh lets see- I also love my dog shes the kewlest thing that lives in my house. When she dies..(which is gonna be soon shes old) im gonna be so pissed off, and someone is gonna feel it with my fist.

Other than that...not much keeps me goin. I get depressed alot and think about suicide alot then....

Oh well thats why

You can't go hurting people because a dog dies of old age, that's ridiculous. However sad it is...

My grandma and close cousin have died this year, I didn't go jacking people in the face.

how close were they to you, i bet you would if it was your mom/dad/bestfriend/gf

Edit- I took out the angry parts, no need to try and hurt people's "feelings"... basically I was very close to my cousin.

One of my bestfriends ODed on morphine about 5 months ago. I about lost it, but I kept my cool man. I just went on a tyrade about how drugs are bad.

Everything happens for a reason... be that reason a good one or a bad one.

We're all going to die December 12, 2021. I'm going to live my life to the fullest up till that point. And if I'm still alive after the destruction, I will start-a-new and begin over, as will we all.

I thought that calender ended on 2012.?..>???