Well... I feel shitty.

[Thanatos]

My girlfriend(Jacqui) and I just broke up about 30 minutes ago. This is the first girl that I have ever loved. I thought I was going to marry her one day; she felt the same way about me. We loved each other. I would take a bullet for her. I still love her a tremendous amount.

I guess we are just taking a break, seeing as how we will probably get together again. She is too religious for me. She talks about God 24/7; she pushes me towards Him all the time. I know I'm a Christian and I'm going to Heaven. That's not good enough for her. She wants me to be in love with him like she is. I just can't do that. I'm not that kind of person.

I can't be a teenager if I date her. I can't smoke pot, drink alcohol, mess around with girls/her, get in trouble or anything like that because it would hurt her. She's told me herself on numerous occasions that the only person she loves more than me is God. I can deal with that. But, the constant reminding and nagging she does is a little bit too much sometimes. I guess she expects me to act like an adult when I'm only 17.

I have been her boyfriend for 10 months and 8 days. Well, that ended today. Hopefully not for long because I love her to death. We've talked about marriage before and I know if I had stayed with her we would have married later in life. I don't know if I'm making the biggest mistake of my life or not. All I know is, I feel like total shit. Motherfuck, I already miss her.

I'm sorry you all had to read this - it's probably just a bunch of ramblings thrown together, but I've already talked about it with my friends. I just needed to vent. I've never cried so much in my life. Call me a pussy or whatever, but I am in so much pain. I just wanna make her happy.

Lonely as fuck right now,
Thanatos.

[Jamesadin]

Happens to everyone, dude. It sucks. But, eventually you'll get over it..

[Demosthenes]

I'm honestly sorry dude. That really sucks. Hopefully it will still work out for you two. Nothing against the religious buffs or anything, but I can see how that might get on you. I'm atheist, for those who didn't know, and I absolutely hate when people try to push me towards god, so I can kind of feel where you're coming from, but that has to suck immensly more when it's from the girl you love so much. I don't know how I would handle it if a girlfriend of mine told me she loved god more than me, but since you believe in god it's probably a completely different scenario. It really does sound like she's asking too much from you at this age, especially since you two don't seem to share the exact same beliefs. Still, I hope it works out for you, man.

And just as a side-note, you don't sound like a pussy at all. I posted shit like this about a girl on this board, and she wasn't even my girlfriend. I will personally lynch anyone that says anything disparaging you because of this post.

[Grav]

That licks balls.

ALL YOU MOTHERFUCKERS ARE GOING TO PAY. YOU ARE THE ONES WHO ARE THE BALL-LICKERS. WE'RE GOING TO FUCK YOUR MOTHERS WHILE YOU WATCH AND CRY LIKE LITTLE BITCHES. ONCE WE GET TO HOLLYWOOD AND FIND THOSE MIRAMAX FUCKS WHO ARE MAKING THAT MOVIE, WE'RE GONNA MAKE 'EM EAT OUR SHIT, THEN SHIT OUT OUR SHIT, THEN EAT THEIR SHIT WHICH IS MADE UP OF OUR SHIT THAT WE MADE 'EM EAT. THEN YOU'RE ALL FUCKIN' NEXT.

[Demosthenes]

ALL YOU MOTHERFUCKERS ARE GOING TO PAY. YOU ARE THE ONES WHO ARE THE BALL-LICKERS. WE'RE GOING TO FUCK YOUR MOTHERS WHILE YOU WATCH AND CRY LIKE LITTLE BITCHES. ONCE WE GET TO HOLLYWOOD AND FIND THOSE MIRAMAX FUCKS WHO ARE MAKING THAT MOVIE, WE'RE GONNA MAKE 'EM EAT OUR SHIT, THEN SHIT OUT OUR SHIT, THEN EAT THEIR SHIT WHICH IS MADE UP OF OUR SHIT THAT WE MADE 'EM EAT. THEN YOU'RE ALL FUCKIN' NEXT.

Niqqa grav, you have a seizure with caps lock pressed down?

[Vollstrecker]

He's quoting Jay from "Jay and Silent Bob Strikes Back".

On-Topic: That sucks man, and I know how you feel. Hopefully, you both we will be happy, whether together or apart. If she feels the same way about you, you have nothing to fear, as she will return.

Although, I will impart one piece of advice: Definitely wait on getting married. People change a LOT in their younger lives, so it is best to wait before doing anything as life-altering as that. I've flat-out told Abby it isn't even an option for a few more years, at least. On average, 4/5 marriages end in divorce when the couple marries this young (25 and under, roughly).

But enough of that. I hope it works out, man.

[Demosthenes]

He's quoting Jay from "Jay and Silent Bob Strikes Back".



Oh. Thanks for that info. I was fearing for his health for a second.

[slaynish]

>> Jay and silent Bob Strike Back

GG Grav

[KagomJack]

That's horrible :( I'm sorry this all happened to you man. Hopefully things get better.

[Grav]

You should still be worried, since this just occured:

GravitonSurge: have I.. written anything?!!?
Kamesan: NO.
GravitonSurge: What on earth does that mean

I don't even know who that is or how their name got into my instant message box! :(

I don't remember writing that! Or my reply! What the fuck! HELP! :(

[Titusfied]

Ugh.. First loves are the worst ones. The pain incurred from a break up is far beyond any other feelings you could ever imagine having. Nothing wrong with having strong feelings and being a human in shitty circumstances. If you don't cry after a first love break up, it probably wasn't real love, unless you are just a normally cold-hearted individual.

Anyway, first break ups usually don't last too long, especially in cases where neither person is really at any significant fault. Time apart may be the best thing right now. I'm sure everything will work out for you bud. Take it easy, and keep venting if need be.

[Thanatos]

I just didn't want her to be my first love. I wanted her to be my only love. I have no doubt in my mind that if we met when we were say.. 25, we would have been married by now. She made me so happy every second I was with her. Sometimes I'd wake up and think, "Holy shit, I'm Jacqui's boyfriend!" God, this sucks.

We wouldn't have divorced either - she's totally against it. If we say our vows, divorce isn't an option. My parents got divorced so I'm not really gung-ho about it, either.

[OmniFalcon]

Thanatos, if she is pressuring you about God, and Idk, I have my own view on God, maybe you should talk to her about it. If this break is a "break" like just a "break", then you guys are still friends right? Talk to her about it, and tell her how much you miss her. Maybe you can fix it up if you guys talk about it.

[-=Rico-GP=-]

Have you tired telling her how you feel? Like everything that you've said in this thread.


I guess it doesn't matter now, seeing as you're broken up.

[Titusfied]

Well, I don't think many people think that when they fall in love for the first time that there will be others. Everyone always thinks the one they are with is "the one". Not saying you might not ever have to fall in love again, since this very well could be the one, but I'm just saying.

[tokill.ace]

im really sorry thantos, but it does happen to everyone

[HandOfHeaven]

That sucks man. I hope that you two are just, as you said, taking a break. She probably still loves you too.

[Thanatos]

Well, we won't be getting back together until I realize how fucking dumb I'm being. Meaning, I need to be more religious before we get back together.

Yes, I've told her everything I've told you guys in this thread. Yes, we still love each other. It'll take her a longer time to get over me because of how she depended on me. She kind of lost some close friends while we were dating, when I gained more friends. So... I'll just go get high with them or whatever. I really hate this.

It pretty much comes down to this: Once I want to be as religious as her, I will call her. Whether it be 2 months or 2 years. She'll still have a place in her heart for me, as I will her.

[Shining Knights]

It matters not whether you win or lose; what matters is whether I win or lose.

[Thanatos]

Our breakup was mutual. I was the one that suggested we take a break and she pretty much agreed with it.

I already believe in God and I'm a Christian. That's not good enough for her, though. She has a really personal relationship with God, while I don't. Apparently, you need one to be with her. Anyway, I know for a fact that she loved me. We were engulfed in each other. Like I said, we had already planned on marrying while in college.

She never controlled me. Hell, I smoked pot; something that she is totally against. She's the president of every non-drug group in our school.

I will still talk to her everyday and continue to love her, as she will do the same. It's just gonna be a lot different not going over to her house all the time and spending immense amounts of time together. I'll eventually get over it but it's gonna be hella hard.

[kockblocker1]

I never really understood what makes people go so overboard with that Jesus stuff. Anyway keep you head up dude. Shit always has a way of working out and the pain is forgotten after time. You'll be fine.

[!King_Amazon!]

Eh, it happens, get over it.

I hate christians who are like that. I'm not a christian because I'm a thinking man and I believe in what I know. I know there is a supreme being. I don't know there was some guy who was all powerful and rose from the dead, and even if there were, I have no reason to worship him. Good for him.

Of course, people are always trying to convert me and I always find a way to prove them wrong about something. My near future female companion(not my girlfriend) is a fire and brimstone Johnathan Edwards type christian. We listened to one of his sermons in class and she actually agreed with him.

I like debating with her about it because she's very very stubborn about her ideas and it's fun when I'm right and she says she's right anyway. And she has a nice ass.

[Thanatos]

Way to turn this thread into you, bitch. No fucking shit I'll get over it, it's just gonna take some time. If you even knew how close we were, you'd understand.

[Randuin]

I should probably comment on this since I have this happening to a friend right now.

He's in a "relationship" right now with some girl from Australia. They met over RO.

How? I will never know.

But he's happy, and from what it sounds like, she's happy too. Being a friend, I should also be happy, and I am... Somewhat. I'm mainly worried because he keeps talking about how she's the one.

All I can say is... She probably isn't. She's 16, the decisions she make, like coming to canada for university, getting a job to get plane tickets, aren't really valid. What if she doesn't? The more love you devote, the more hurt you get.

But talking about Thanatos' topic, if something about her bugs you, forget her. If it bugs you now, it isn't going to change later on. I might hurt now, but if you continue to have feelings for her, it's just going to continue to hurt.

[!King_Amazon!]

Well well, why don't you just pitch a hissy fit then?

You're not the only person on this fucking earth who has broken up with someone they are really close to.

Go ahead and cry your tears and tell yourself you are so pitiful. Good luck growing up. You're 17 you stupid bitch, act like you've got some balls and get over it.

[Thanatos]

You don't think I realize that, KA? You don't think I realize how I'm not the only person that this has happened to? No shit, fucker. I can post about it if I fucking want to. I needed to vent. Have a problem with that? Get over it, crankshaft.

Yes, I cried but I never once called myself pitiful. And what the fuck did I just say? I said I would get over it, it was just going to take some time. You probably wouldn't know being a huge E-nerd and all. Once you fall in love with someone who you think you're going to spend the rest of your life with and then all of a sudden you break up, of course you're going to feel bad.

Class, welcome to 1st grade. Today we are going to learn about emotions! Hoorah!

[!King_Amazon!]

I wouldn't know that, I'm still with mine for 3 years last thursday. I was just sharing my input, which I can do if I want to, and if you've got a problem with it you can do something about it instead of whining about it. You suggested that you two take a break and now you're acting all pitiful like she just cheated on you with your best friend or something.

[Thanatos]

That break turned into a break up. So, I feel a little shitty. I feel enraged when it comes to why we broke up. It makes no fucking sense to me.

The point I'm trying to make is, if somebody is feeling bad it doesn't do much good when you kick them when they are down. If this happened to you, I woudln't give you shit over it. I'd respond the way everyone else has. Don't be so goddamn hateful.

[!King_Amazon!]

I don't see where I did anything to you really. You started bitching at me for sharing my input which was not mean to you in any way.

[Grav]

Whoa, BONEr.

Anyway, if your girlfriend wants you to change for her, then maybe you two weren't meant to be.

[Thanatos]

That's what I came to realize. If she can't accept me for who I am, than tough shit.

[Shining Knights]

It matters not whether you win or lose; what matters is whether I win or lose.

[RoboticSilence]

I totally agree with Shinto in both of his posts.

When you have a relationship, it should be with someone like you and not someone who is trying to change who you are. If you lke to go out and drink and smoke pot and stuff then find someone who also does that. Then you will truly be happy.

[w00t.ace]

thanatos, i jsut have to say, im really sorry, and i hope you two can work it out

[Thanatos]

Bkeh, I sit behind her in Econ. It was really awkward. I know eventually that she'll come around because she's really depended on me being there for her. But, by that time I may be with someone else.

There's this girl at work who has stated that she would, "Like a boyfriend like me." and "You are sooooo cute!" and "Ohmygawd, you are so sweet." She also smokes pot. We would get a long very, very well. I just don't think I'm ready for anyone else right now, though.

[Titusfied]

Yeah, don't mess with her right now, but don't let her get the idea you aren't interested. You have to wait a few weeks, at the very least after a break up like that. I'd say 3 weeks to a month, then if you two aren't back together, see if that chick wants to grab lunch or something small like that.

[Penny_Bags]

Yes... grab lunch...

Or maybe a nice hard cock.